This morning, moments ago I had a revelation of sorts.
For the past 3 or 4 days I have been holding my emotions so tightly to prevent descent into panic, finally this morning I let go, realising that in order to stay far from the hands of panic I do not need to hold myself tightly in a cocoon of fear and anger and determination, I simply need to relax, breathe and enjoy the good things in life like the fact that my beautiful and amazing girlfriend will be here with me in exactly 4 weeks.
So now as I write this i breathe a sigh of relief accompanied by an apology to you my darling, and apology for any moment in the past few days when i have been awkward, or tense or difficult to talk to. I apologise and promise that from now on I wont be any of those things. You are my angel and I am so lucky to have you and to love you, so stay with me as we fight through the panic, our love and happiness will just wash over the panic.
I love you my princess, never forget that.
fist of all, I love you too! and im always aware of the bless that your love is to me <3
ReplyDeleteAs the second, Jess our love is powerfull and somehow there's even no need to fight against something that does not exist. We are so epic together and bby, Honestly u didnt were or behave like any of those things u mentioned. You were just being the normal and human girl I love for being a thinker, brilliant and a beutiful person. No need to apologise when nothing has being done :)
and as ironic as it is i feel relief too! since that other day that we talked and I could finally let it go.
thank you for all this moments bby... :D
just some more weeks and I could materialized all this im saying! <3
I love you!