An epic year!!

Today as a I celebrate another birthday i cannot help but be pensive as a look back over the past year and at how much my life has changed since I last celebrated my birthday!
Firstly I have completed another year of college a task I was sure I would not complete, how ever I am proud to say that I did succeed and finished my second year of university!
This past year saw me embark on two of the most amazing and life changing adventures of my whole life.
This first of these epic adventures took place last august as I boarded a plane in the company of my dear cousins to venture to the far off land of Mexico. The furthest I have ever traveled the journey which took 20 hours in total were the most nerve wrecking of my life. I was excited and nervous about landing in a land which i knew very little about and meeting the people who I knew so much about but did not know in person. Little did i know that once i stepped foot on Mexican land my life would never be the same!
During the five weeks which followed, I partied hard, made some amazing friends, discovered who i truly am and met the love of my life but was completely oblivious to this fact!
I extended my trip and I was heart broken when I eventually took to the skies to return to the emerald isle, Ireland.
I came home and I was greeted by my old life and it confused me greatly, the template which I had left behind no longer fitted my life, I was happy, I was more confident and I was secure in myself.
I struggled for a while but my life was expanding through a friendship which was blossoming online. This friendship quickly grew into something more which matched the feeling growing in my heart and fitted perfectly with my plans as I had just bought plane tickets to fly to Mexico again as a surprise gift!
I once again flew thousands of miles and felt a sense of relief when I landed. The surprise was epic and the six amazing days i got to enjoy with my girlfriend were even better!!
This year I went on two huge adventures abroad, I climbed a pyramid, got drunk on a boat, got high on a roof, i made some amazing friends and i fell in love with you,Jess and with life.
I'm confident in the fact that this next year which starts today is going to be just as amazing as the one which just ended!! and I am excited to start my new adventures as a happy more centred girl, completely in love and ready to experience everything life has to offer!!

Revelation

This morning, moments ago I had a revelation of sorts.
For the past 3 or 4 days I have been holding my emotions so tightly to prevent descent into panic, finally this morning I let go, realising that in order to stay far from the hands of panic I do not need to hold myself tightly in a cocoon of fear and anger and determination, I simply need to relax, breathe and enjoy the good things in life like the fact that my beautiful and amazing girlfriend will be here with me in exactly 4 weeks.
So now as I write this i breathe a sigh of relief accompanied by an apology to you my darling, and apology for any moment in the past few days when i have been awkward, or tense or difficult to talk to. I apologise and promise that from now on I wont be any of those things. You are my angel and I am so lucky to have you and to love you, so stay with me as we fight through the panic, our love and happiness will just wash over the panic.
I love you my princess, never forget that.

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Epic 21st birthday party, I love my friends and family.

R.I.P Mr Gerry Ryan, a legend and a friend has departed from this world but the memories will forever remain.

Dear Mr.Panic...Fuck You!