"Time in the hand is not control of time"

As I stood at the bus stop this morning with my music playing in my ears I tuned into the visual things occurring around me. Every single morning i stand at the same bus stop with a school boy and a pregnant woman who always wears a pink coat. These small details are picked up without very much observation but as I was standing at the bus stop today I observed my fellow bus stop inhabitants and the people driving past in their cars.
Curiously I looked to my right to observe the school boy standing about 7 or 8 feet away form me. I noticed his lips moving but there was nobody there to hear his words. I paused my ipod mid song and listened to the sound which emerged from this boys mouth and I realised he was singing at the top of his voice and he didn't seem to care! I smiled to myself and held in a laugh as I must say this was quite a strange practise to witness at a bus stop at 7:45 in the morning!
I turned my attention next to the lady sitting across the road at the other bus stop. She sits there every morning in a pink coat and navy trousers. I noticed this morning that in the past 4 months I have never once seen her smile. I often wonder where she goes and what she does, there is a certain sense of mystery associated with the pink lady, the choir boy is simply going to school.
As I focused once again on my music another rather hilarious sight crossed my eye line, a fully grown man cycling a child's bicycle wearing a bright red jumper and gardening gloves, what an odd combination in my mind.
The bus arrived shortly afterwards and I got on and sat in my usual seat as I do every morning and I began to think about a topic a discussed with my girlfriend last night, the ever-present issue of time!
Time has become a weight around many of our necks as we all race towards something forgetting to slow down and take in the little details like the colour of a ladies coat or the size of a bicycle which passes us. Instead we are all striving to accomplish things in our lives by a certain age, we set all of these deadlines and for what? So we can enjoy a sense of accomplishment? What use is a sense of accomplishment if it is coupled with a sense of regret, regret that you didn't travel, regret that you never played guitar in an awesome rock band, that you never sang in front of a room full of crazed fans! What use is the huge house and the perfect family and car and money if you missed out on life and the best experiences that is has to offer.
Today I was preoccupied with time and I realised suddenly that having said all of these things I too am preoccupied with time, can we ever escape the ravages of time? Would the world be in complete chaos if we abandoned the age old tradition of time keeping? Probably but shouldn't we use our time wisely and experience all of the joys life has to offer in our own time not in a race of time with society.

Je t'aime

Shades of colour I never knew existed,
Images of beauty, powerful enough to render me speechless,
An undiscovered symphony, for you and I to hear.
My muse, my inspiration, my reason to live,
You are all of these and more,
You are the wish I once made on a shooting star.
My eyes have been opened to the beauty of this world,
You look at me and I know what I have found,
A soul mate,a lover, a best friend, three intertwined.
The sun shines brighter when you are around,
You kiss me and me feet leave the ground,
Your love permeates through my skin, I can feel you within.
Thank you for giving me the key to your heart,
Trust, commitment, feeling, we wont ever part,
Stay by my side until the sun descends,
make love to me sweetly, never let these feelings end,
You have completed me, you were my missing part,
Whisper softly, hear my beating heart,


You inspire the greatness of life and its true beauties in my heart, thank you for being you and for loving me.
You are my angel, and I am forever yours.

Eres Todo Para Mi

I am sitting here with your notebook resting on my chest. It is just close enough for me to smell your scent every time I breathe. Breathing you in.
This book is precious, each page contains a piece of our story, of our love and with every turn of a page i can feel the love that you put into this little pink book.
The Drawings are on my wall beside my bed so that even though you are not here I can look at them each day when a wake up and they are a constant reminder that in 8 weeks I will be waking to see your beautiful face next to mine.
Each time your scent fills my head i become intoxicated, with memories, with feelings, remembering those mornings getting ready together, watching you, observing, kissing, touching. These memories cause my heart to race, the pace quickening as you permeate through all of my other thoughts. The intensity with which you have touched my life has changed my heart, my mind, my soul. I am no longer a single being, I am part of you, and you part of me. Our souls have merged and our hearts have synchronized.
Last night through a screen I experienced one of the most intense emotional moments of my life. A moment that I could only share with you.
Receiving this package today combined with that moment yesterday as made me even more certain, if that is possible,that you are the one for me, you are my one.
This summer is going to be one filled with fun, laughter, love and revelations. A new phase to our ever growing love.
I love you J, forever in my heart, you are my everything, with you i feel safe and strong. You are my reason, my gift from the stars.
Welcome to our epic love, infinite together.
Te amo mi amor, eres todo para mi.