C'est la Vie

The beginning...the middle...the end.
This format is basic and applicable, in some sense to everything we do. Every essay we write, every drawing we do, every song we compose, every little thing which we undertake follows this format.
As humans we strive to have all of these aspects figured out before they happen indtead of living and enjoying the beginning we are planning the middle and when we finally get tot the middle we are often dissappointed becasue often we will have imagined something far more glamorous than waht our realities allow. I think that this is a defence mechanism something we do to try and cheat life, to cheat the fear and cheat the inevitable dissappointments which we are sure to encounter on this journey through a little thing called life.
This week i struggled trying to figure out my next step and to forsee where my middle stage lies. It dawn on me today as a wandered about doing everyday normal things that I dont need to have it all figured out. Already in my twenty years my plans have fallen apart!
In two months time i will celebrate the second anniversary of the day that I made one of the most significant decisions of my life. A decision which saved me from missing out on a middle stage and skipping straight to the end. I rewrote my life in a single moment.
Planning too far ahead can only be detrimental to our happiness it only sets us up for failure, for disappointment. We can draw a rough sketch and do everything in out power to live out or dreams and live according to our plans but i fear that the universe has other ideas. Life is a test and as with any test you can prepare until you feel you have mastered the topic but there will always be a surprise question just like life will always throw you something out of the ordinary.
From now on I shall endeavour to enjoy to the fullest what I have right now, my amazing love, my amazing friends and all of the other fantastic things which make up my life.
One element in my life at this point in time is certain, my heart is strong and fuelled by this love. An inspiration to live in the moment and not panic about all of the tomorrows too much.

Tu es ma vie J, je t'aime.