The Darkness

I lie in this place, the damp and cold sinks into my bones into my very soul.
The tears which were once produced from my blue eyes are not existent now.My hearts pain once fierce and uncontrollable is now null and void, the pain is numbed by fear and regret. Distance is a curse, something uncontrollable and undeniable.
I reach for my angel but she has descended into the darkness too, we are one in the darkness a wholeness which is forbidden in light, two hearts beat in the shadows but in the shadows this connection must remain, bound by loyality to others the heart must be forgotten as practicality and other such nonsense takes over.
What happens when your heart and your head pull your soul in opposite directions when you want to do right by everybody but this is impossible, if you rip your heart from your chest would it make it better, would it ease the pain ,would it fix the damage which has been done?
blackened hearts dont beat they crumble watch as mine disintegrates.<3