For five months we lived in separate continents, you lived your life and i lived mine with a short cross over each day online.
We survived and got to know each other inside out through msn, skype, expensive phone calls and texts. Since you arrived my laptop, my phone and this blog have become virtually obsolete. Instead of sending you a text first thing in the morning to tell you to have a great day i now kiss you softly on the lips when we wake up...side by side.
Instead of being glued to my laptop posting you videos and comments on facebook i am able to chat with you face to face, to listen to music with you relaxing on my bed.
The past two weeks have been the most amazing of my life.
Thank you for being here and thenk you for being you!!
I LOVE YOU J!!
<3
Monday, June 21, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
quotes
"The aim of love is to love: no more, no less." oscar wilde
"For what is Truth? In matters of religion,it is simply the opinion that has survived. In matters of science, it is the ultimate sensation. In matters of art, it is one's last mood." oscar wilde
"Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love" jane austen
"Is there no way out of the mind" sylvia plath
"For most of history, Anonymous was a woman." Virginia Woolf
"And by the way, everything in life is writeable about is you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity id self-doubt." sylvia plath
"All the worlds a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages." william shakespeare
"For what is Truth? In matters of religion,it is simply the opinion that has survived. In matters of science, it is the ultimate sensation. In matters of art, it is one's last mood." oscar wilde
"Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love" jane austen
"Is there no way out of the mind" sylvia plath
"For most of history, Anonymous was a woman." Virginia Woolf
"And by the way, everything in life is writeable about is you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity id self-doubt." sylvia plath
"All the worlds a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages." william shakespeare
Monday, May 10, 2010
An epic year!!
Today as a I celebrate another birthday i cannot help but be pensive as a look back over the past year and at how much my life has changed since I last celebrated my birthday!
Firstly I have completed another year of college a task I was sure I would not complete, how ever I am proud to say that I did succeed and finished my second year of university!
This past year saw me embark on two of the most amazing and life changing adventures of my whole life.
This first of these epic adventures took place last august as I boarded a plane in the company of my dear cousins to venture to the far off land of Mexico. The furthest I have ever traveled the journey which took 20 hours in total were the most nerve wrecking of my life. I was excited and nervous about landing in a land which i knew very little about and meeting the people who I knew so much about but did not know in person. Little did i know that once i stepped foot on Mexican land my life would never be the same!
During the five weeks which followed, I partied hard, made some amazing friends, discovered who i truly am and met the love of my life but was completely oblivious to this fact!
I extended my trip and I was heart broken when I eventually took to the skies to return to the emerald isle, Ireland.
I came home and I was greeted by my old life and it confused me greatly, the template which I had left behind no longer fitted my life, I was happy, I was more confident and I was secure in myself.
I struggled for a while but my life was expanding through a friendship which was blossoming online. This friendship quickly grew into something more which matched the feeling growing in my heart and fitted perfectly with my plans as I had just bought plane tickets to fly to Mexico again as a surprise gift!
I once again flew thousands of miles and felt a sense of relief when I landed. The surprise was epic and the six amazing days i got to enjoy with my girlfriend were even better!!
This year I went on two huge adventures abroad, I climbed a pyramid, got drunk on a boat, got high on a roof, i made some amazing friends and i fell in love with you,Jess and with life.
I'm confident in the fact that this next year which starts today is going to be just as amazing as the one which just ended!! and I am excited to start my new adventures as a happy more centred girl, completely in love and ready to experience everything life has to offer!!
Firstly I have completed another year of college a task I was sure I would not complete, how ever I am proud to say that I did succeed and finished my second year of university!
This past year saw me embark on two of the most amazing and life changing adventures of my whole life.
This first of these epic adventures took place last august as I boarded a plane in the company of my dear cousins to venture to the far off land of Mexico. The furthest I have ever traveled the journey which took 20 hours in total were the most nerve wrecking of my life. I was excited and nervous about landing in a land which i knew very little about and meeting the people who I knew so much about but did not know in person. Little did i know that once i stepped foot on Mexican land my life would never be the same!
During the five weeks which followed, I partied hard, made some amazing friends, discovered who i truly am and met the love of my life but was completely oblivious to this fact!
I extended my trip and I was heart broken when I eventually took to the skies to return to the emerald isle, Ireland.
I came home and I was greeted by my old life and it confused me greatly, the template which I had left behind no longer fitted my life, I was happy, I was more confident and I was secure in myself.
I struggled for a while but my life was expanding through a friendship which was blossoming online. This friendship quickly grew into something more which matched the feeling growing in my heart and fitted perfectly with my plans as I had just bought plane tickets to fly to Mexico again as a surprise gift!
I once again flew thousands of miles and felt a sense of relief when I landed. The surprise was epic and the six amazing days i got to enjoy with my girlfriend were even better!!
This year I went on two huge adventures abroad, I climbed a pyramid, got drunk on a boat, got high on a roof, i made some amazing friends and i fell in love with you,Jess and with life.
I'm confident in the fact that this next year which starts today is going to be just as amazing as the one which just ended!! and I am excited to start my new adventures as a happy more centred girl, completely in love and ready to experience everything life has to offer!!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Revelation
This morning, moments ago I had a revelation of sorts.
For the past 3 or 4 days I have been holding my emotions so tightly to prevent descent into panic, finally this morning I let go, realising that in order to stay far from the hands of panic I do not need to hold myself tightly in a cocoon of fear and anger and determination, I simply need to relax, breathe and enjoy the good things in life like the fact that my beautiful and amazing girlfriend will be here with me in exactly 4 weeks.
So now as I write this i breathe a sigh of relief accompanied by an apology to you my darling, and apology for any moment in the past few days when i have been awkward, or tense or difficult to talk to. I apologise and promise that from now on I wont be any of those things. You are my angel and I am so lucky to have you and to love you, so stay with me as we fight through the panic, our love and happiness will just wash over the panic.
I love you my princess, never forget that.
For the past 3 or 4 days I have been holding my emotions so tightly to prevent descent into panic, finally this morning I let go, realising that in order to stay far from the hands of panic I do not need to hold myself tightly in a cocoon of fear and anger and determination, I simply need to relax, breathe and enjoy the good things in life like the fact that my beautiful and amazing girlfriend will be here with me in exactly 4 weeks.
So now as I write this i breathe a sigh of relief accompanied by an apology to you my darling, and apology for any moment in the past few days when i have been awkward, or tense or difficult to talk to. I apologise and promise that from now on I wont be any of those things. You are my angel and I am so lucky to have you and to love you, so stay with me as we fight through the panic, our love and happiness will just wash over the panic.
I love you my princess, never forget that.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
....
Epic 21st birthday party, I love my friends and family.
R.I.P Mr Gerry Ryan, a legend and a friend has departed from this world but the memories will forever remain.
Dear Mr.Panic...Fuck You!
R.I.P Mr Gerry Ryan, a legend and a friend has departed from this world but the memories will forever remain.
Dear Mr.Panic...Fuck You!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
"Time in the hand is not control of time"
As I stood at the bus stop this morning with my music playing in my ears I tuned into the visual things occurring around me. Every single morning i stand at the same bus stop with a school boy and a pregnant woman who always wears a pink coat. These small details are picked up without very much observation but as I was standing at the bus stop today I observed my fellow bus stop inhabitants and the people driving past in their cars.
Curiously I looked to my right to observe the school boy standing about 7 or 8 feet away form me. I noticed his lips moving but there was nobody there to hear his words. I paused my ipod mid song and listened to the sound which emerged from this boys mouth and I realised he was singing at the top of his voice and he didn't seem to care! I smiled to myself and held in a laugh as I must say this was quite a strange practise to witness at a bus stop at 7:45 in the morning!
I turned my attention next to the lady sitting across the road at the other bus stop. She sits there every morning in a pink coat and navy trousers. I noticed this morning that in the past 4 months I have never once seen her smile. I often wonder where she goes and what she does, there is a certain sense of mystery associated with the pink lady, the choir boy is simply going to school.
As I focused once again on my music another rather hilarious sight crossed my eye line, a fully grown man cycling a child's bicycle wearing a bright red jumper and gardening gloves, what an odd combination in my mind.
The bus arrived shortly afterwards and I got on and sat in my usual seat as I do every morning and I began to think about a topic a discussed with my girlfriend last night, the ever-present issue of time!
Time has become a weight around many of our necks as we all race towards something forgetting to slow down and take in the little details like the colour of a ladies coat or the size of a bicycle which passes us. Instead we are all striving to accomplish things in our lives by a certain age, we set all of these deadlines and for what? So we can enjoy a sense of accomplishment? What use is a sense of accomplishment if it is coupled with a sense of regret, regret that you didn't travel, regret that you never played guitar in an awesome rock band, that you never sang in front of a room full of crazed fans! What use is the huge house and the perfect family and car and money if you missed out on life and the best experiences that is has to offer.
Today I was preoccupied with time and I realised suddenly that having said all of these things I too am preoccupied with time, can we ever escape the ravages of time? Would the world be in complete chaos if we abandoned the age old tradition of time keeping? Probably but shouldn't we use our time wisely and experience all of the joys life has to offer in our own time not in a race of time with society.
Curiously I looked to my right to observe the school boy standing about 7 or 8 feet away form me. I noticed his lips moving but there was nobody there to hear his words. I paused my ipod mid song and listened to the sound which emerged from this boys mouth and I realised he was singing at the top of his voice and he didn't seem to care! I smiled to myself and held in a laugh as I must say this was quite a strange practise to witness at a bus stop at 7:45 in the morning!
I turned my attention next to the lady sitting across the road at the other bus stop. She sits there every morning in a pink coat and navy trousers. I noticed this morning that in the past 4 months I have never once seen her smile. I often wonder where she goes and what she does, there is a certain sense of mystery associated with the pink lady, the choir boy is simply going to school.
As I focused once again on my music another rather hilarious sight crossed my eye line, a fully grown man cycling a child's bicycle wearing a bright red jumper and gardening gloves, what an odd combination in my mind.
The bus arrived shortly afterwards and I got on and sat in my usual seat as I do every morning and I began to think about a topic a discussed with my girlfriend last night, the ever-present issue of time!
Time has become a weight around many of our necks as we all race towards something forgetting to slow down and take in the little details like the colour of a ladies coat or the size of a bicycle which passes us. Instead we are all striving to accomplish things in our lives by a certain age, we set all of these deadlines and for what? So we can enjoy a sense of accomplishment? What use is a sense of accomplishment if it is coupled with a sense of regret, regret that you didn't travel, regret that you never played guitar in an awesome rock band, that you never sang in front of a room full of crazed fans! What use is the huge house and the perfect family and car and money if you missed out on life and the best experiences that is has to offer.
Today I was preoccupied with time and I realised suddenly that having said all of these things I too am preoccupied with time, can we ever escape the ravages of time? Would the world be in complete chaos if we abandoned the age old tradition of time keeping? Probably but shouldn't we use our time wisely and experience all of the joys life has to offer in our own time not in a race of time with society.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Je t'aime
Shades of colour I never knew existed,
Images of beauty, powerful enough to render me speechless,
An undiscovered symphony, for you and I to hear.
My muse, my inspiration, my reason to live,
You are all of these and more,
You are the wish I once made on a shooting star.
My eyes have been opened to the beauty of this world,
You look at me and I know what I have found,
A soul mate,a lover, a best friend, three intertwined.
The sun shines brighter when you are around,
You kiss me and me feet leave the ground,
Your love permeates through my skin, I can feel you within.
Thank you for giving me the key to your heart,
Trust, commitment, feeling, we wont ever part,
Stay by my side until the sun descends,
make love to me sweetly, never let these feelings end,
You have completed me, you were my missing part,
Whisper softly, hear my beating heart,
You inspire the greatness of life and its true beauties in my heart, thank you for being you and for loving me.
You are my angel, and I am forever yours.
Images of beauty, powerful enough to render me speechless,
An undiscovered symphony, for you and I to hear.
My muse, my inspiration, my reason to live,
You are all of these and more,
You are the wish I once made on a shooting star.
My eyes have been opened to the beauty of this world,
You look at me and I know what I have found,
A soul mate,a lover, a best friend, three intertwined.
The sun shines brighter when you are around,
You kiss me and me feet leave the ground,
Your love permeates through my skin, I can feel you within.
Thank you for giving me the key to your heart,
Trust, commitment, feeling, we wont ever part,
Stay by my side until the sun descends,
make love to me sweetly, never let these feelings end,
You have completed me, you were my missing part,
Whisper softly, hear my beating heart,
You inspire the greatness of life and its true beauties in my heart, thank you for being you and for loving me.
You are my angel, and I am forever yours.
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